I can't believe the weather! It has been so hot recently that it feels like summer has been in full swing for weeks now and that it should be over soon. In other words, it feels like August to me. I'm so not ready for summer to officially begin. It would also help if I was back to my pre-baby weight but lets be realistic.... I had a baby four months ago so its just not happening for me.
I have been looking online for a swimsuit because I have none that fit and I have been looking at one-piece suits(gasp!). I found a really cute one that seems like it will cover my imperfections, but..... it was too much money. So I settled for something that was a fraction of the cost. I am waiting for it to come in the mail. I also think that it will be good for carrying the kids on the beach and having them in the pool with me. I don't want things to be falling out!
So we have decided to do another garden on our concrete balcony this summer. It looks pretty good, but I can't seem to get cilantro to grow. Is it usually difficult to grow? I don't know but I sure can't grow it... I usually have a green thumb too! I must admit that my dill is kickin this summer! I am so happy about that because I love dill!!! :) Joaquin likes to help out with the planting and watering. I can't wait till my little guy can help out... then it will really feel like a family project.
I tried to make baby food when my first son was ready to do solids but I had the wrong type of baby food mill and none of the food got to a good consistency that he would eat. We finally have a blender so I can now give it another try. It will also save money for us and that's what we have been trying to do. My little guy is already on baby food (yes, at almost five months old!) and he is just so big compared to his older brother. I can't even compare... they were born under different circumstances and because Joaquin was so early it has really affected his growth.
My milk supply is drying up and I really have been struggling with pumping/nursing recently. After Easter and my stomach virus I had tried to pump every 2-3 hours to get my milk supply up again. It did work even though I was not back to the normal amount I was able to pump before I got sick, but we had gone away for the weekend and I barely pumped/nursed while I was there. It is so much easier to breastfeed then you are somewhere around people who encourage you to do it. I noticed that I needed to be in a relaxing environment in order to breastfeed and that weekend was crazy. I really noticed after that that my supply really went down the tubes. I try to pump now and I only get 4 or 5 ounces in total. That is much less than what he is eating now. I am ready to give up on it completely because it is not only frustrating, it makes me feel like I failed at being a mother because there are some women that breastfeed till the kids are 3 years of age (and I think thats a little crazy). I really wanted to nurse till he was one, but it doesn't like that is going to happen.
I have come to the conclusion that it is so hard to be a full time mom. My job is my kids and to take care of the house and to cook and clean for my family. Its difficult when I have to wake up a few times a night for different reasons. Functioning in the morning is close to impossible without a strong cup of coffee. I am now to the point of having two cups a morning....
-Momma J
