This Holiday Season

This Holiday season, I admit, doesn't feel like it used to. I just can't get into it this year! I feel bad because I want my little one to have this awesome Christmas but there I am... stuck. I can't go out and buy gifts because I am on bed rest still and that takes some of the joy out of the holiday for me. I love buying gifts for people. I love wrapping those gifts and seeing the faces of my loved ones after they see their gift. I'm not going to have that this year. I know everyone in my family understands but I still wish I could do something for them. I'm glad I got a few little trinkets here and there earlier in the fall for my son- If not there would be almost NOTHING! Ack!

We did get a tree so it does look like Christmas in the house. I'm glad we did something for Baby J. Growing up, we always had a tree on Christmas. ALWAYS! I wanted my little guy to have a tree too... so the love of my life went out and picked a tree with Baby J while I was stuck at home. It was good for them to get out and hang together even though it was for a short time. We had lots of fun decorating the tree and every now and then I catch Baby J trying to take an ornament from the tree and move it to another spot. It's hilarious because he knows he is not supposed to touch the tree. If it was up to him there would be no ornaments because he would throw them everywhere! I guess that's  what happens when you have a boy in the house!

That is a new thing... throwing balls. He loves to throw footballs, foam soccer balls, etc. He can throw overhand and has a really good arm! I'm shocked at how well he throws. I think he will play football or baseball when he is old enough. I'm sure he will be good at sports... he has enough energy for it! I just hope that the next one comes out and can keep up with his older brother... if not I don't know what I will do!


So I am at 35 weeks this week.... one week more than the Dr gave me! I'm happy Little One is staying in there for so long, but I know he can't wait to come out! I feel him try to move but I can feel that he can't. He has no room to move and he is always stuck in the one position. A C-section is what I must get. I think it's better anyway so there are no complications with a VBAC. I have been getting those Braxton Hicks contractions and boy are they no fun! They feel like bad menstrual cramps and always come when I am sleeping or relaxing. I didn't get them with my first pregnancy because he came so early but this time God was sure to bless me with them. Ouch!

I hate that I can't see my feet. I hate that I can't sleep at night. I hate that when I sneeze I pull something and am in pain for a while. I hate the back aches and the leg cramps. I hate the "mask of pregnancy". I am swollen and can't eat without feeling like I will throw everything up. I love how the baby kicks but not when there is a foot constantly in my ribcage.  People like being pregnant?? I like the fact that I have and can feel my baby inside of me- I just don't like the things that go along with it! There are some women that have fantastic pregnancies but mine have not been cake. They have been hard but have been well worth it!

I have a gut feeling that this kid will be coming into the world rather soon. I'm not sure when, but will definitely post when he does. Until next time!!

Much love,
-J