Babies and updates

Ok, so I must admit I have been a little lazy with this blog. I can't make up one excuse because it was so many things put together that made me lazy. Bed rest, being 9 months pregnant, having a crazy child running around while being on bed rest, and then having the new baby has not been an easy thing. Having one baby is hard enough- especially when the terrible twos are setting in, but add a newborn to that and it's complete chaos. I'm breastfeeding which takes up so much time... But I really wanted to do this because I wasn't allowed to nurse from the get go with Baby J. Speaking of Baby J, he has been so jealous it is ridiculous. He wouldn't come near me in the hospital (which made me feel horrible) and since we have been home he acts up when he feels he needs attention. It's annoying because he will cry and not have a tear in his eye. It's all a front and that front drives me insane! The new baby is doing just fine- growing like a little weed and seems to be the exact opposite of Baby J. He came out at 6 lbs as opposed to 2, and right now ( he's a month old already), he is busting out of 0-3 month clothing. I saved a pair of pjs from Baby J and they fit Little guy right now. J wore them when he was 5 months old!

Sometimes I don't know the reason I started with calling my son Baby J. Maybe to protect his identity, but I feel like I should stop so this is more true to life. My not so little little guy is named Lukas... He's my little blue eyed boy. He has eyes like my dad and they have been such a reminder of how much I miss my dad everyday. I wish he could have met my boys. I think he would have enjoyed having grandsons.

Having kids is hard and having two is even harder. It's a full time job that you never can get a break from. Do I want a break? Well, sometimes I think I would like one but I can't imagine not being around these two wonderful boys of mine all the time. I really enjoy the time I get to spend with them and am so thankful I get to stay home and watch them right now. Eventually I will have to get a job and hopefully find someone to watch them. I won't get into it now because I don't want to think about leaving my little men with someone for hours at a time.

Wow, I really got off subject there. I was talking about Joaquin and Lukas and it turned into daycare/ job and my dad. How random. My head has been all over the place and I blame the kids and lack of sleep. I really should be asleep now but I can't fall asleep yet. I need to get a little more tired. Hopefully I force myself to blog more often... Like every day or so. There was A reason I started this blog and I want to do my best to continue with it and not let it fizzle out of existence. With that said, I Am going to try to sleep and continue to blog tomorrow. Sweet dreams!

- Momma J